garden update

As those of you who know me already know, my garden has been in a state of dissaray for a while now, but its finally starting to get there.

OK, so it has been rather forced since emma wants her party in the garden, and the thought of a load of 16 year olds doing battle with the triffid, bramble, trip hazard and general jungle flora that erupts at regular intervals out there was giving me the willies, but nevertheless, at last, ITS GETTING THERE.

Its my day off today, and its dry, warm and good gardening weather, so I've been out there for the last couple of hours clearing, burning and digging.

I've already broken the fork....testimony I'm sure you'll agree to the sheer superhuman effort that I was putting into it [ and nothing at all to the fact that one of the tines was bent and might have been a bit on the dicky side ]
But I've dug over about 3m[sq] down the bit thats going to be planted with some big architectural tropical type triffids of my own, [ having decided that since I can't do anything about next doors giant I might as well use it to set off some things that I actually like ]

so i'm putting these in.




And some more stuff that will make a screen to seperate the 2 halves of the garden.

Change

I'm frankly a little nervous of posting this, if only because as soon as i tell someone that I'm going to do something I generally then promptly do an about face and do the exact opposite, but there is no avoiding it.
If i am to feel happy in myself then I have to change.
Slowly and steadily the person that is inside my head has become rather different from the flesh surrounding it.
I feel like the old man who told his son that he is still the 12 year old with a pet skunk [in his head] not the 65 year old with arthritis that his body told him he was.

The camera never lies.

and I'm seriously not happy with some photos of me that got taken last night.

I know that I haven't got the spare time that i used to have to change loads of things in my life, but I can and will change some.

Thats as much as I'm going to say incase i jinx myself, but I feel like I have made a mental switch today and i hope that tomorrow I will feel the same way.